Sendoh x Rukawa
- Smile -
School Roof.
"I can't tolerate you anymore Sendoh. What are you thinking? Keep changing girlfriends everyday, every moment!"
Koshino said with a rather angry voice.
But Sendoh just leaned himself against the fence, looking at the clear sky with a smile.
"Hey did you hear what I said?!"
Koshino shouted.
Then Sendoh closed his eyes, and said slowly, with a smile.
"Calm down, Koshino."
"And I hate your smiling face."
Koshino switched his eyes away with an unhappy face.
Sendoh laughed.
"So why people always smile while taking photos?"
He turned his eyes towards Koshino.
Koshino got a bit surprised at Sendoh's question.
"Why... ?! More beautiful?!"
"Coz they wanna keep that moment as a happy memory. When they looked at the photos again, they will know that at lease at that moment, they are happy."
"..."
"So why don't cheer up? People can feel your happiness and like you are giving happiness to others."
Sendoh's smile slowly disappeared, and turned his eyes towards the sky again.
"If there's a method, that can help people die more easily, painless, I will try. Living is a rather tiring thing."
"What are you talking about?!"
Koshino asked with a bit worriedly.
"Hey I was just joking. ^o^"
Sendoh suddenly realized what he had said, he quickly put on a smile and said.
"Let's go back. The bell rang."
Sendoh pulled Koshino downstairs with a smile.
At home.
"I had a talk with Koshino this morning."
Sendoh sat down on the sofa.
"He ask me why I keep changing girlfriends."
"Yeah?"
Someone sat beside him said in a lazy voice.
Sendoh gave him a hug.
"What do you think?"
"..."
"You don't know."
Sendoh said with a smile.
But then suddenly the one said.
"Coz you feel life boring. The empty feeling drove you to find someone, hoping that they will know your feeling but yet, they didn't. In the relationship, you gave them happiness but yet, you found more emptiness and lonliness. The emptiness made you find more and more, but in turns, what left behind? That's the endless lonliness and emptiness deep inside your heart."
Hearing what he had said, Sendoh got a bit shocked.
"What they know is a happy Sendoh. They never find out what's behind that happy face. They get what they want, and that's enough. But yet, what you gain is more empty, boring and lonely feelings"
That someone continued.
Sendoh hugged him more tightly and said.
"You understand me."
Sendoh gazed at him.
"But you can't blame them as you're too good in covering up your true feelings."
That someone gave Sendoh a cold look , and said.
"I hate showing my true feelings to others... And, so do you, Ru."
Sendoh looked into Rukawa's eyes.
Rukawa didn't answer, but a light smile flashed on his face.
"And, that's the way I love you..."
Mysterious, quiet, surprising, and, you are the only one who knows my true feelings
Sendoh slowly closed his eyes and pressed a kiss on Rukawa.
- End -
SenRu again. I had put some true feelings inside this story, and maybe you will find the story a bit boring. But yet, some of the sentences are the true feelings of me. ^o^
Anyway, hope the story's not too boring to you.
P.S. Thank you Bremen for helping me the gramma and spelling of the story!